i had surgery again today..ahhhhhhhhhhhhh this is getting soo fun!..maybe ill hold a world record for so many surgerys in one year ...yes!!!!!

well maybe someone could come take care of me......u kno who u are...

COUNTDOWN FOR MAH B DAY!!!!! 2 DAYS!

MAN..I AM OFFICALLY SINGLE!!!

ooK!...me and ruben are done! DONE DONE DONE...it feels soo weird to say that..but guess what? im happy..yeah i miss him ALOT..and i wish we could be together..but after the way i saw him act..and now that i kno how he feels..i kno its for the better...i sat there and cried forever ...like 2 days straight..but im ok now...hes just soo hardheaded...and he thinks im gunna come runnin back to him!! hahah nope..it feels soo weird to say it..but we're really D O N E...after a long year and something....so yeah...um..hes actually comin to my b day party..on sunday..yeah..i dont kno how that is gunna go... but im not gunna let him ruin my b day..so he better not act retarted...hopefully he can come and it'll all be good..i wont have to sit there and miss him.. all i gotta kno is there is other guys out there ..that will treat me better then he did..everything used to be real good with him...but i guess things change....and so do ppl...so yeah...

i guess hes just immature..he'll realize what hes missin...he will never have the kinda relationship with someone else that he had with me....so...in the end..im gunna laugh at him...everything he put me thru...and then to have it come to this..hahah all i can do is laugh...